Saturday, June 14, 2014

Back to blog

Oops.. Realise I have neglected this blog.

Though I'm surprised there's still view here.
The last I blogged here, on a breakdown in office back in Nov 2013.
How time flies.. Its Jun 2014, and so much have changed.. So much...
For a start, those who caused me to have mental breakdown, had left the company.
Of course, its not easy too, the fact to have someone to handover "knowledge", "know-how" of 15 years in a span of less than one month.
Not only that, was told "nothing much actually"...
Oh well, does that mean 15 years in the company, doing nothing, thus nothing much to hand over?
Fine, I'm a survivor, as always. I will survive and still surviving. :)
I can say, I would have consider build an okay rapport with the team.
I did my part, I worked hard, learnt hard too.
Wasn't an easy feat, but one that can feel satisfied with.
I would say my team (most of them) do bond well with me, and I do appreciate them working hand-in-hand with me.
After-all, all of us just want to do our work well, isn't it?
Start with doing weekend duty, boy, that was tiring.
Almost working everyday with no rest.
It is only recently that I managed to tell myself, when its scheduled off, just go for it.
(Still trying ... )
Been in my new role, does take time to get used to it.
Previously, I just need to manage myself. Now, I need to manage others (a team of 6), manage users.
Still remember one colleague told me this when I just weeks into my new role, and I mentioned about my fear of managing people, people whose experienced far exceed mine, who are older than me too.
He said, experience is something to be slowly build on.
As of now, just show others by working extra hard, putting in the time and effort. Over time, people will know and see you can and people will acknowledged your worth.
Valid I would say.
Moving on, might need to manage a team of 9-11 people. Not going be easy.
But things get smooth, I know.
I have Him. my faith is in Him. :)
Just got my bonus and increment. Happy.
Though no promotion this year (frankly, quite unlikely to have promotion for two years running), my CIO still got a good grade for me, thus the bonus are good.
Money definitely need to be saved, but it is equally important to buy something as a reward for myself.
In a way, I know, this item is purchased due to whichever reason ma.
Like last yr, I got myself a Tag. a present from last year bonus.
So this year.. Let me think think...
No photo to upload.. As I'm blogging while doing my duty.. Shh...

Friday, November 29, 2013


I have never ever thought I will breakdown in office.
Have never ever thought I will feel so sorry for myself
Have never ever thought feeling so "scared", thinking why will people want to dig holes for me to "jump" in, finding ways to see my mistakes, instead of assisting me, helping me

Perhaps can't really rely on others, can't trust others

In any thing, email (problem is, people don't reply to email!!!!)

Still thinking how I should handle and cope
How to face it and face those people.

Tuesday, November 19, 2013

Update: African Violet

Yes, it has bloomed!

Yet open in full bloom yet.

Started two leaf cutting, will take weeks before roots appear, plantlets appear and then to pot into regular pot. :)

Monday, November 18, 2013

Handmade Lunch tote

Just made this lunch tote, though had cut out the fabric few days back.
Of all my handmade items, this one is one of the best! :)

Saturday, November 16, 2013

Managing people, managing expectation, managing self

How does one get experience in managing people, when one has always got managed by others for so long?

How does one manage expectation, when one does not know what he/she is capable of?
Based on dreams, hopes?

How does one manage self when don't know what does one wants or need?

How to interact with peers and/so staff under him or her?


How to command respect when the things you ask for and want not given?
How to handle and manage when people do not want to impart knowledge?

I know just have to learn to hard way, by oneself..

Why will people want to make things difficult for others?
we just want to do our job well, right?

No answer to the above, need to ponder and think and ponder.

Pray.. Pray for answers and for solutions
For such, I won't know how to handle, can only leave it to Him.

Friday, November 15, 2013

Update: African violet

After a week, time to update on my baby African violet!
I realize it's not one, it's not two, not even three, but 4!

I would supposed it should bloom next week *fingers cross*

Thursday, November 14, 2013

Mini starbuck!

My dear eben got me this from his business trip!
So cute, and so not him to buy me this type of gifts.
But he definitely know I like such a lot!
Plus my recent craving for Starbuck!

It comes with a pen to draw on the cup to make it a unique gift!
And then, ready to be hanged on my Christmas tree that will be in my home next week!

Wednesday, November 13, 2013

Making decisions

Making decision has never been my forte.
As one never know if will regret the decision made.

But life is filled of decisions, one way or another.
Just like I decide to undertake a new jobscope, i had also decide to embark in another "area".

Glad he is agreeable, after all, he is for it.

Guess, the mentality is, you never know what you are going to get.
At the bare minimum, only when you try, you know you had tried your best.

Coming Monday is a good start, though not sure what to expect from it.

All we can do is to leave all into His hands.
All will be good, for He is good.

Let go, let God.

Ending off with a shot of myself. Well, while waiting for my Mac brekkie @ drive-thru!

Tuesday, November 12, 2013

Sinful meal alone

When the hub not home, it's time for rubbish meal

Meaning of Rubbish: yummy yet sinful.

Oh well, the soup is supposedly healthy (from soup spoon)