I often wonder, towards the opp sex, had I, from time to time, pass the message across?
Had I seemingly seems ultra-friendly / ultra-need-someone-to-take-care, or i seemingly happen to be there to give them a hand thus the shift of attention from the special someone onto me?
Or I had seemingly getting more and more low self-esteem,
thus dont believe the fact that I'm still attractive and able to get attention from the opposite sex? =p
Some food for thoughts.... Hee ....
These days, somehow feels weird.
Suddenly, there's more guy friends, more close guy friends around in my life.
Getting too close for comfort. (not physically la)
and I'm starting to get abit paranoid over it.
One stressing me to give a try in the r'ship, but I had already made known the fact its impossible bet us and its a r'ship I doubt I will try, due to some reason.
Another, know that its "impossible bet us" thru the conversation, still seemingly trying.
*For this guy, I may have think too muchie as in he might not have interest in me la, but its a feelin I had lor*
Wondering if there's something wrong in the way I express myself,
or they had wanted something from me?
*I had always been very skeptical over this, that guys only want certain things from me, a mentality that's hard to change lor*
Perhaps, it could be just a very simple friendship. Afterall, I'm single, right?
A very valid reason to go par-toking and to get to know more friends, right?
But the fear still there.
Fear of not knowing what to communicate after some times,
fear of commiting to the wrong person,
fear of getting hurt.
But then, all these are part and parcel of life, isnt it?
Hahaaa...
If i keep thinking like this, I'm definitely going to be left on the shelf. How how how?
After all, I'm reaching mid-twenties soon le.... (Soon, not NOW)
Or perhaps, the right one had yet to appear, thus the unwillingness to commit, the fear to try out.
Perhaps, if the right one comes my way, I will just agreed and accept there and there.
Haha......
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