somehow feel like blogging this down ..
In another 2 days ... it will b 27th Jul, a day that is supposed to be special...
but that's in the past liao ...
that if nothing goes wrong 5 mths ago, and me still enhancing my tolerance level, 27th jul might be a day of celebration...
A year has almost passed, just like that.
for the first 7 mth, time was sweet yet bitter. very bitter.
for the last 5 mth, fulfilling yet empty.
now come to think of it, 5 and 7 are my favourite no..
how time flies... slow in some aspect, fast in some aspect too.
slow coz, after so long, only 5 mth has passed.
fast coz in these 5 mths, so many things happen to me, so many things.
in these 5 mths, i had started on my part-time degree course.
in these 5 mths, i had known lots of friends that I had been trying to keep in contact at least once a week.
in these 5 mths, i had got closer a friend who i had neglected coz of my past r'ship though she understands.
in these 5 mths, i had a very busy and packed, from weekdays to weekends.
in these 5 mths, i had my "tao hua yun", somehow something in me attracted guys? i dont know.
in these 5 mths, i had got healthy (well, healthier than b4 la) coz of gym-session and jogging.
in these 5 mths, i had become a bikini "babe" (dont really like the sun in the past). *babe is just a term, i aint got the figure for it except my slim frame. Hee... *
in these 5 mths... alot and alot had happened.
can say its for better, definitely ... my time well-spent and more occupied.
wonder, if i'm still with him, such thing will never happen, NEVER.
but in these 5 mths, though i had alot of friends there, keepin me accompanied, i stil yearned, yearning for someone to be there for me, to cuddle me, hug me whenever i feel down. or to share my joy whenever i'm happy, or to go mad with me.
be there to help me to de-stress, eg. in exam period.
Mainly to share everything with me.
of course, friends can help me to de-stress, but its somehow different.
i want someone who i can love and be loved in return.
Though i'm not sure if i'm ready for a relationship now ..
I still feel sad, somehow. stupid me. *smack myself hard*
I think i'm the type of person, whom, on the surface, dont look as if it bothers me, but somehow deep inside, it does bother me ba.
just like for my studies, on the surface, i look damn relaxed, but mentally, i'm stressed out.
still quite baffled at the fact i dreamt about my modules and exam. terrible sia.
make myself so worried. =(
guess for this chapter, its the same ba.
but then, after 27th jul, i will really close this chapter in my life, and hopefully start another one soon ?
well, i will close, as for starting another love chapter, i shall leave it to fate ba.... =)
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