I had realised alot of flaws in myelf ....
These flaws has always been part of Me, just that, recently, getting more and more obivous and even I myself, cannot tolerate.
I'm getting naggy by the days..
I'm getting overly-judgmental by the days..
I'm getting overly-KPO by the days..
and more ...
And I also realised... I'm beginning to lose myself by the days...
Lose as in ... Not knowing what I'm doing, whether its right or wrong, for what's sake or for what purposes?
The way I spend my time...
Yes, no doubt, all my time are well-spent, as in, busy and packed schedule,
but... does it justify anything?
Yess... justify in the sense it pulls the bonds between my friends closer.
Is that all ?
Lately, I had been so socialable, too socialable,
at the expense of over-exceed my budget sia. =(
Think I better do something abt it.
I feel i'm split into many parts.
one part of me, want to play all I wanted and enjoy life.
one part of me, want to concentrate on my studies but...
one part of me, want to concentrate on work but ...
one part of me, want spend more time with family but ...
Well, again, back to the same problem.
I'm forever so contradicting, not knowing what I wanted.
Or rather, I know what I wanted, but I dont know how to set my priorities right.
How do people manage to accomplish so many things at one time?
At times, like in work, I dont mind going the extra distance for my users/colleagues.
Yet I dont want them to take me for granted, thus i refrain from doing my best.
It seems wrong, and it is wrong.
But a part of me, just want to protect myself from getting "used".
Wrong mentality?
Definitely.
Same thing for family too.
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Think I need to re-assert myself.
What I shld be doing now, what I shld be refrainin from doing.
And what I shld control from doing.
first thing first...
Stop being naggy.
- try not to nag, grumble, complain so muchie.
*Its quite hard once you got into a habit of tat. and the fact I got regular "ears" to listen to my rubbish*
Stop being overly-KPO.
*Its part of me, and I had always been KPO or rather a nicer word used will be "curious". Will try to control la.*
Stop being judgemental.
*Hmm.. passing judgements ever so fast. Not good.*
First, get away these 3 points.
The rest, take times till i figure what my priorities first.
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